xKeL.

2008-06-24T21:53:00.002+08:00

well sch starts again....back to that repetitive old lifestyle.........
bye to my hair...

k...

been up to lots of things lately...
set up my own maple private server....seems to be dying now......
if wan join msn me, thanks. make it more alive lol..

been slacking ard during hols...
doing nothing much actually...

was then i realised i have to get myself a goal to work for...
well aft i tot it over...
hmm....acutally thr isnt much i can actually do...
i mean im not particularly good at anything....
my studies may be okay but i hate studying -.-
piano...n musical stuffs.....basically epic phail...
Gamer? hmm maybe? DotA and CnC3 perhaps....the only competitive games i enjoy...

lulz. k maybe i shall become a POHFESHUNAL gamer someday....haha

with that said....

kthxbai *DotA*

2008-04-06T20:36:00.002+08:00

k im not gna continue my post abt italy....go to some other choir members' blog to see...

just went on a reading spree cuz i was bored...(and i hav a ton of hw sitting right infront of me.)...
i read smth about wanting to the best on someones blog...4got who...
well, it reminds me of...well....myself...
it in human nature to want to be the best, in no matter what..bt how much of that is actually too much?

last night, i couldn't slp becuz i kept thinking about my bio and phy test....how i got 1 qn wrong in both test just because i remembered the wrong thing. 4 marks gone from each paper. I know i may still get an A1, or many an A2, bt deep inside, i still feel really really bad....really disappointed in myself...like how could i make this mistake?!
Even in gaming, i have done it before, owned in a DOTA game, absolutely thrashed my opponents in C&C3, drove circles around people in NFS, leaving many dead in CS. But when i could not do it again, i really feel very disappointed in myself.
i know it may seem ego but face it, i know what i am capable of and this is not up to my standards.
Just 1 qn wrong and i lost my good night's sleep. and also because of my complaints, i got "flamed" by many.
Ask yourself, how many times have you "flamed" a person for getting higher marks than u. i know i've been "flamed" many many times. ASk yourself, deep inside, you want to have those marks too. Who does not want to get high marks, who does not want to be clever, who does not want a bright future ahead?
well i am not afraid to say this:
I want to be the top scorer for sciences in my class
I want to be famous
I want to have an extremely high paying job in the future
I want the best for myself and my family.

It has to be the best, or none at all.

LOL title!

2008-03-31T20:45:00.002+08:00

havent been blogging for awhile....abit sian liao. dunt u find blogging abit sian? esp when ur life is freaking boring. the usual repititive stuff like school...wake up at 6.30, wash up, do hair, go sch, slp,recess, slp again, wake up for some lsns, slp again, go home, play com, dinner,com , bath, slp. rinse and repeat. Im gna go crazy soon.

So anw, had a break frm this dammed boring lifestyle for a week...in ITALY !!! *wooooooo**screams!*

Okay, no pics here. too trouble some to upload 10pics into imageshack..plus i look dam stupid in every pic i took there....zzz <.<

Day1
Got to airport at 9.30
father dropped me off at the drop off point thn drove off, leaving me alone to find other rvc ppl...
so i found a few...
thn lagged
thn check in
thn lagg again...

ffwd to plane

nothing much...sat beside mingshin for SG - Dubai..
din do much....read the GameAxis mag i bought...C&C3 Kane's Wrath cover story..
played Reversi on the screen infront of me..
and got toatlly owned by the AI...

Landed in Dubai...
Sat down and played halo on my laptop..

boarded plane again..to venice...
sat with zy this time...
okay....nth much again..

Venice.
Touched down, and headed for venice
Beautiful place. Damned beautiful.
Aft an intro, we were given 1hr free time ard the place
so me, mingshin, zhengyang, zhi ying, qi yuan and yu jun went for a gondola ride !
saw lots of interesting things...
deserted alleys where ppl get raped in...
Pigeons popping out of drainage pipes
Random tomatoes lol.

So aft the ride, we chionged back to the meeting place cuz we were late...
thn went to hotel.

Had sectionals in hotel.
thn slp.
dammed pissed at that time for various reasons...

Day2
Woke up at ard 6
played abit of halo on my laptop
washed up, hair, thn went down for breakfast
nth interesting...
aft breakfast boarded bus to Riva Del Garda, our competition venue
bus ride was ard 3 hrs

Arrived at Riva Del Garda, went to hotel for check in
woot our room was dam nice
a balcony, and a biiiiiiiiiiig room.

went down for lunch...pasta....

aft lunch, had some practices...and a afternoon run in a park that had the most stunning scenery
a clear blue lake, and mountains ard it....

more practs, thn slpt.

Day3 - Competition.
Okay...
Overslpt....only woke up when weikai banged on our door.
Me n Mingshin immediately got up, took our jackets, wore shoes, and chionged down to the meeting area for morning run.
Morning run, thn tried Karimata while running..
UTTER PHAIL. nuff said,
never try that again

aft morning run, went back to hotel for breakfast, thn it was time to go for our S category competition.
It was held in this really beautiful church in the city center...
Acoustics were great...
Had sound checks..
thn an hrs wait b4 it was our turn
So we went in, smiled, sang our 4 songs, and walked out.
Felt so relieved aft that. Half down, Half to go.

Went back to hotel for lunch, thn went out again, for our G4 Category.
It was held in this auditorium, that had quite a wierd design....like a spiral of some sort. nvm, it was still nice anw.
had sound checks, thn another hour's wait.
by this time we were all tired and sounded rly bad...bt it all turned out okay b4 our turn.
Went backstage and i heard what i thought was an SATB choir..Ms Tham told us it was Catholic high....thn for a moment i tot cat high was a mixed sch o.O. rly sounded liek an SATB choir i tell u....with sops, altos, tenors and basses....wonder hwo they did that..
Okay so it was our turn...went up, sang our last few songs.
Freedom at last.
Listened to the other choirs sing, thn went back to hotel, dinner, thn all hell breaks loose.
Went back to my room at 1st....thn mingshin went to amandas room...okay so i dun disturb them i stay in my room...
Tried to slp, bt cant...too high liao, so i decided to go to amandas room too...
thr got quite a few ppl....
bt once i got thr i felt dam tired, so i just lay on the bed and slpt.

Day4
Got up the next morning....
went for breakfast..thn went back to my room...
played Halo multiplayer with Sun Zhe and owned him...
thn weikai, jj, cal and some othjer guys came and play too.
and i still OWNED !!! woot.
thn weikai had this stupid idea of tag team, 1 person control gun, 1 person control movement.
Wei Kai and sun zhe, me and mingshin.
Whao, this time we got ownedd......the combi of 2 gays was too gay for us...

okay so aft that we went out to some place.......
thn we went to listen to other choirs compete...

thn went back hotel and OWNED more in halo.

thn i 4got what happened (:

Day 5
okay i'll post this antoher day

2008-02-24T22:39:00.002+08:00

heh, its been a long time....

in this past month:

- got a new laptop (:
- stupid tests...
- Geog 12/16
- Eng 13/15
- Bio sux...stupid diabetes
- Playing World in Conflict..
- not so much dota now...
- btw, the new pa owns u. 6.51 ftw!

k...thats about it.

kthxbai

2008-01-21T20:57:00.000+08:00

back from penang..lol

reached sch at 6.15...
departed..
k..
drive drive drive..........
bus broke down halfway.
zzzzzz
wated 1hr for the girl's bus to turn back and pick us up...
waited by the highway looking like idiots...
sang some songs...those rly old ones..
haha
k so we got onto the girl's bus
played bridge with yujun germ luohui
reached the hotel at 10+

wtf we drove frm 6.15 to 10+..good job man...

thn walked to a nearby hawker centre to eat...
k..nth really interesting...

went back to hotel...
roomed with mingshin and WILLIAM ZOMGWTF
k..
slpt at 12+ after watching tv

woke up at 6 the next day
wtf william is shit man wake up so early for fuck...
onli nid to b ready by 8
zzz

k so we ate our breakfast...thn went to chun ling high sch...
had an exhcnage and a "ice breaker"
stupid shit.....
their hall is air conditioned wtf.......
rv sux...

k...
practised a little thr...
it was total shit...

went back to hotel...
played bridge with gk they all
and i finally found sum1 btr than kai jun in bridge
"gk start bid pls"
"3 spade"
"WTF U NOOB (*#^$*&^@(#&@(*$&#(*$^"
uber pro.

gk "k partner is ace club"

....

elijah "eh laiseng we win liao"
laiseng "eh ur my partner ah?"
"ya...tjakra ace of club with u?"
me "no..."
gk : "oh sry its with me"
all "u fking noob *&#)$^%@(*^(*$&^#$*&#^$"

k...
thn we gt ready for performance...
1st performance
il est bel et bon
as torrents in summer

woot. those claps we dam half hearted man..
dun wan clap thn dun clap lah
fking assholes
fking noobs who onli listen to cheena songs.

2nd perfomance
zhu li guan
karimata

UBER PHAIL. NUFF SAID.

good thing is no one emoed....
at least it was over...
we're gna get owned tmr...

got back to hotel...had supper
went room hopping
zzwtf la.....all kip moving from room to room....
zzz....
in the end i just stayed in jona's room and slept.
heck those fucktards.

woke up at 7 the next day
went to penang hill
rly sian thr...
so in the end me gk laiseng elijah mingshin just sat on a bench thr and played brigde.
lol alot of ppl stopped to watch us play...
haha

went down...
went to some mall to shop
yeah man...at last something to do..

went to eat steamboat with zy they all...
hes wierd this time...
kip hanging out with mavis and weikai
and that jun jie kip foloing thm too...
rly wierd man......
me and mingshin din feel like waiting for tm
after eating we went to shop
go tropicana life 1st....
as usual, dun hav my size...
always...
KL de shop oso like that..
so as usual i bought 1 size smaller...
still fits lah...
bought a wallet...
rly nice
but
no coin pouch. damn.
total: 70RM
went extreme next
boguht 2 shirts
total: 90RM

k...thn we went back to assemble...
thn suddenly say can stay for 2 more hrs, bt settle dinner too...
k...
went arcade to play...
woot daytona
haha i drove in reverse, pwnt them all.

thn went down...
went billabong
WOOT 1/2 PRICE MAN !!!
bought a shirt for 47RM
dam cheap for a billabong shirt thr

aft buying it was 6.25
chionged to coffee bean, tp-ed a chicken pie and a regular caramel latte.

went back to hotel.
ate the pie at sizheng's room...
thn went zhiying's room...
play bridge
gossiped abit...

thn went to sizeng room slp cuz william fell aslp with my room card. zzz
and the rest is preety uninteresting.

got owned by mr ong for bringing gum into sg...

reach sch at 10

go home, slp.

the end.

2007-12-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

lol back from candy's church christmas thing...
quite fun la...
the only thing that stopped me frm saying its damn fun is cuz of the prayer sessions...
and all that religious stuff...

nvm im immune to that...

hm....
can i go church without beign christian? o.o
haha
actually there was a time where i used to pray every night...
when i was in pri sch LOL
guess bring in a christian sch does that to u...
but yeah i grew up...
and took a more practical view on things...

well anw i do believe that theres a god..out there..
but i dun believe in all that shit where u are restricted frm doing stuff
and u hav to pray
and tell ppl to be a believer oso or smth...

theres a god. full stop, thats it.

1 thing almost every religion has in common
is that u cant believe in other religions

liek wtf is that?

nvm i shall explain scientifically abt religion.

[WALLOFSCIENCE]
y we believe in god, is not becuz we have a soul, and animals dont.
we ARE EVOLVED FROM PRIMATES. AND WE ARTE ANIMALS TOO.
so...
humans have large brains
and we have alot of extra processing power to do other things not really related to survival..
so we begin to wonder.begin to think..why is the world...liek that.
and we come out with all sorts of theories...
[/WALLOFSCIENCE]

and thats how religions come about. haha.

so live with that. a perfect explanation that counters EVERYTHING.

but..it isnt all that bad...
self delusion can make one stronger and can benefit sum1 if not overdone
like the 2 examples i saw tdy..
yeah i believe them....
perhaps religion isnt such a bad thing after all...

and some things they say do make alot of sense...
like wad candy's sis said..
god only gives wads best for u...if something isnt the best, he will not give u at all.
of cuz take out the god part...yeah..makes sense...
no use clinging on something thats not meant to be....
it may not be for the best anw...
so y not let go, and someday find the perfect one....
yeah...
let go...

and things abt unconditional love...
yeah...
love shld be uncondtional...
nt just money or ur time or wad
its abt ur life too...
being willing to REALLY DIE for the one you love...

so...yeah....
learnt alot today....

heh maybe i shall go back someday...
bt no, i WILL NOT be a christian
i am a DEVOUT AETHIST. (:

kthxbai.

2007-12-15T23:53:00.000+08:00

in msia..going back tmr..lol

stupid boring week..

anw..

bought and finished reading the twilight collection in 2 days
3books in 2 days zomg...

anw its a great read! every1 shld read it
heck, its 1000000x btr than that stupid harry pothead
its abt this girl in love with a vampire guy...
wtf love?!! yeah lvoe story...
but not like ur ordinary i love u u love me whee we kill ourselves kinda story
much much better...
u gt read it urself to belive it...
anw its by stephanie meyer...
so go buy it ! or brw it or smth..just read it man...
wish they'll make it into a movie

oh and watched alvin and the chipmunks..funny movie....stupid plot.
watched goldn compass...

speaking abt that...
the only motivation for me to watch was that it was claimed to be anti-religious.
i recieved a chain mail petition some while ago
asking for the movie to be banned...
said smth about it being for children and anti-religion
so the church was afraid that the children would see the movie, which really isnt anti at all -.- thn read the novels which were..(they say...) and become anti themselves...
i was thinking...LIKE WTF?!
so i put down a negative vote and added a little peice of my mind, then forwarded it back.

like wtf? y ban the movie? hey u guys up there in rome
and the old man in the vatican...listen hard
if ur religion was so great, wad would a mere 3 books do to you?
the people have a choice to believe it or not
to believe in your god or not
u have no right to ban the movie
and wtf, u dun even have the right to start a petition about it.
if peopel want to believe, they will.
if they dont, well too bad, get on with ur life.
im freaking pissed by this...
makes me not believe in you even more damit.
and hey guess wad, ur little petition also motivated me to go watch it.
i bet many other ppl will too.
you cant deny the public from watching the movie
if you guys dont want to watch it, then don't
im sure a 100000x more ppl want to.
so quit whining when ppl dont want to believe in you
fags.
you cant do nothing about it.

personally i think the guy who wrote it has a point.
like wtf? religion? please..
god and bla bla bla
like if hes so great y is the world suffering..
yeah u may say the ppl sinned...so its their punishment...
well...thats soooooooooo convinient eh?
religion.....well the reason the US is so uptight right now is because of religion!!
no religion, no muslims, no jihad. no terrorists. end of story. world peace.
no religion, no racial riots. world peace.
i say fuck religion.

kthxbai.

aethists FTW !!!

anw practicality > spiritual nonsense. spirits arent gna put food in ur mouth.

2007-11-29T21:17:00.000+08:00

chalet..............
haix..
just like any other.
i end up getting emo.

fuck, this has gta stop....

all its done is shown me tht ima freaking loner
getting worse and worse
and yet....i wouldn't miss it for the world
oh the irony...

oh fuck im fuckign whining abt how fucked up my life is again...

nvm, i've learnt nt to hope anymore...
never to dream...
it'll all just come crashing down

nothing good at least...

why the fuck am i so unlucky...
why is this so fucked up....

trying so desperately to change..
its only making things worse...

change? change for what?
for another fucking emo fit ?

how the hell did i become like this....

god..if this goes on
im gna go crazy...

or maybe i already am...

...

..
.
.
.
.
.

wtf.

dno what to say anymore
.
nvm, i shall nt say anymore thn..
it'll only make me more of a fucking loser.

hey JOIN THE LOSER CLUB PPL !

fuck.

n00bXX0rz

kthxbai.

p.s. fuck you.

2007-10-17T21:15:00.000+08:00

...results...

SS - 62/100
Chi - 61.25/100 (lol gave me a surprise)
Eng - 65/100 (LOLWTF (&#^$*&^*&$%@*&$^@#*&$%#)
Maths - 72.8/100 (lol still ok lah..)
Phy - 76/100
Geog - 83.75/100 (...a prc beat me and got 86..no more 1st in class)
Bio - 85.5/100 (same prc....-.-)
Chem - 89/100 ( whoo !!! hope the prcs dun own me)

CID - WTF &(# *&^#*^$%#(* LOLBBBQZOMF.

cid sux. period. waste of my time.

lol good thing is that nxt wk i nt coming to sch except mon (woot !)
gta go msia pray cuz 49th day of my grandma's death....
maybe its not such a good thing after all

lol tdy assembly was fking imba.
prc power man...
imba, dam fucking IMBA
suddenly motivated me to practice my piano lol
and take a 2nd instrument xD

kthxbye

2007-09-25T21:31:00.001+08:00

...crap exams lah

SS
sbq, wtf?
sources B and C are totally different !
source A got wad to say?
source D and E? lol
my mind totally blank, cant think of anything...

SEQ
qn 1 still can, just regurgitate...

wah the founding fathers was a killer...
left only 5 mins to do
so wrote some crap
think only 1 mark...

Geog p1
left the gradient in a decimal form...
1 in 0.007 LOL.
other than that....okay lah...just memory work, nth much.
VEGETATION AND SOIL TYPE IS A DRAINAGE BASIN CHARACTERISTIC !

LA p1
letter - 1page

lol really cant think of anything to write...

expo....qn3..
competitions.
points all overlapping...
once again cant think of anything

CHI p1
LOL ironically i can think of something for this.
gong han
...lol crap shit

bao zhang bao dao
OMG IVE BEEN READING HAO ZUO WEN AND WOOTS ! all the points were there.
but in the end no time write finish
last part, all 1 sentence points, no explain
lol

think can pass bah....

man whats wrong with me...
cant think of any points to write about...
can only memorise....
haix...

am i that stupid?

2007-09-19T18:34:00.001+08:00

anw...
failed my piano grade6...
96 marks....100 to pass lol.
and im nt being sarcastic here,
its really 100 to pass,
u can ask other piano ppl
haix...duno if i shld just give it up
no matter how i practice....
it still ends up the same.. its crap!
i just cant think and play at the same time...
well i guess its time to talk to my mom abt the guitar lessons again...

2007-09-18T18:33:00.000+08:00

things you will never know.

you will never know why i look forward to CID so much
you will never know why i walk the longer way
you will never know why i prefer a window seat
you will never know why i stare at my computer screen without doing anything everyday

you will never know how much you mean

but if i were to lose you to that kind of guy, i'd rather give you up, cos you have changed so much.

so i pray i haven't.

not like you'll ever read this anw...

p/s
crap im supposed to be studying...
im gna fail.

2007-09-11T21:17:00.000+08:00

"what's the worst thing i could say,
things are better if i stay
solong and goodnight..."
Helena - My Chemical Romance

Gerard Way wrote that song in memory of his grandmother.
and now i dedicate it to mine.

....
sad holiday...
went to msia then...

my grandma died on 6/9/07.
din get to see her much when she was alive...then now...
haix....

well at least...
she died peacefully...
and every1 came in time to see her for the last time..
except for my bro and my father who din go to msia -.-

a few months ago she was still looking good
walking ard...
cooking..
doing all the chores...

and who would've thought...
...

well, shes in heaven now, free of all pain and suffering
that seems good...

ppl, cherish those ard u, for u nvr noe when they'll be gone.
and when they do go, it wont be pretty.
trust me, i've been through it.

2007-08-10T12:45:00.000+08:00

yay NDP ! woo

so fun lah
reach sch at 2, then board bus, leave at 2.20
then reach, do makeup, hair lol
this time makup dam hiong sia, so red

then eat
KFC ! xD
2 pc meal ! haha !

then kop alot of NEWater lol

5.30 we went out
ard 6 laidat went on stage

lol stand on the inside again, so can watch the show haha

and wtf, they let the fireworks off at the wrong time
in the end the commandos hav to repel down in the fireworks lol
the sparks must be dam pain

then the river of dreams no sparks for the boat haha

then sing sing sing ....
medley was dam fun haha!

ok then over....dismiss... lol

it was DAM DAM DAM UBER WTFLOLBBQ jam in citylink and dam hot oso
lol so many ppl, in the end they hav to put human traffic light sia
then stuck there ard 30mins
then go raffles city eat

idle ard there for dam long....
then me mingshin and yujun go find andersons
lol dun hav
then find ben and jerrys
thn later try finding donut factory
lol

in te end go bk eat
and saw smth interestin.............

by the time we're done,
already like 10.30 lol

reach hme at 11.20
haha
at least this time got sum1 to pei wo
so not so sian

ahh
tdy, no oen going out
SIAN !

2007-08-02T20:15:00.000+08:00

...
com's power supply got fried last sat...just b4 i had to go for preview -.-
cant use com...
then today

repair guy finally came..
aft i got home,
...

the cpu was gone -.-

apparently, when they changed the psu, it shorted out too
...
so they had to take the whole CPU back for testing -.-
hope my hard disk isnt shorted...
1.6gb of pics
1.5gb of music
60+gb of docs
my completed C&C3....
my macromedia flash fireworks etc...(my cd duno lend who liao nvr return -.-)
photoshop....
source codes for blog tempates.....

lol. hope it isnt fried bah...
lol hope it isnt my $242 nVidia 7900GS...

in march my com shorted out
cuz my old graphics card overheat, then fried
lol so they took the whole com bak to test
then gimme some crap lousy card to use while they get a replacement which is also lousy but better...
in the meantime, i couldnt take it anymore and bought a uber pwnage 7900GS
lol.

...hope they bring my com bak soon.

2007-07-23T22:00:00.001+08:00

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish enough "Hello's" to get you through the final "Good-bye.."

if every1 were superheroes, no one wld be super.
if life was a bed of roses,
it wouldnt be.

appreciate the good times, remember them and never give up in the rain.
even as the physical forms may be gone, the memories remain.

2007-07-20T21:05:00.000+08:00

OBS !! WOO !!!!
so nice lah, learnt alot

WOO MUNSHI ! haha
thnx to all in teh grp for making it such a fun experience
thankyou(sry is i spell wrong ar): Jian Howe, Wei Hao, Wai Lum (Wayne), Kaylene, Lydia, NATAlie, Li Ling, Soo Sien, Huang Yao, Shi Xiao, Ai Xin, Pei Xian, Grace, Shu Yun, and last but not least...AHMAD !!! WOO !!!

One of the happiest moments is when we found our checkpoint on the hill...i thought i finally did something right in my life for a change, i led us all up and we found it ! even though we missed the 1st checkpoint becase i read the map wrongly, and in the end choosing to go up the hill and wasting ALOT of time, it was worth it. even thoguh we were late, i never regret the descision. The process is what makes up life, not just the success or failure.

some very inspiring quotes

"What lies before us and what lies behind us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us" -Ahmad

"We are like teabags, we do not know our true strength untill we are in hot water"

"The same sun that melts the wax bakes the clay"

"We cannot control what happens around us, but how we react, is within our control"

in short, OBS made me realise alot, and alot of them have been told to me before, but i never truley understood them or realised its importance till now.
Conditions are not always perfect, and will never be perfect, so we try to make do with whatever we have.
Cherish everyone and everything, u never noe when you might see them again
Once you leave them, you may never get to see them again.
Perserverence is the key to everything, never give up in the face of adversities.
Do not see everything as a bad thing, even bad things can be good things if seen in the right way.
Never procrastinate.

I will miss the times i had,
kayaking in the sea
leading my watch through the trek
pitching tents
doing business in the open lol
rock climbing
the encouragement
the cheering...
the IMBAness

Next up in my wishlist, 21 day course !! WOO !! LETS SAIL TO BATAM !

2007-07-14T21:38:00.000+08:00

...life's full of mistakes i never learn from.
i noe, the reason my life's so screwed now is cuz of myself.
..

-NEVER EVER let go of an opportunity. to do anything.
-NEVER EVER buy anything on impulse.
-NEVER EVER let down your guard in sch. that was what i did and my hair got screwed.
-NEVER EVER act like MJ, no matter big or small
-NEVER EVER procrastinate. there is never a perfect time to do anything, the best time is NOW.
-NEVER EVER go and AA
-NEVER EVER let your life be controlled by others
-ALWAYS remember to learn from your mistakes, dont just brush it off.

2007-07-12T21:14:00.000+08:00

lol was bored so ripped a survey

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON THAT...
1. Made you smile? cant remember. most ppl dont bother to
2. Saw you cry? no one
3. Went to the movies with you? cant remember either.
4. You talked on the phone with? jonneh.

WOULD YOU RATHER...
1. Pierce your nose or tongue? nose
2. Be serious or be funny? funny duh.
3. Drink whole or skim milk? skim.
4. Die in a fire or drown? drown.
5. Spend time with your parents or enemies? parents -.-

DO YOU PREFER...
1. Flowers or candy?candy.
2.Gray or black? black. duh
3. coloured or black and white photos? coloured
4. Lust or love? love
5. Sunrise or sunset? sunset
6. M&M or Skittles? M&M
7. Staying up late or waking up early? staying up late

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
1. Do you like anyone? yes
2. Ever recorded a sexual act on video? lolwtfno
3. Have you taken a picture naked? lolwtfbbq no
4. Do you fall for the wrong guy or girl? ....no

DO YOU PREFER...
1. Sun or moon? moon
2. Snickers or Mango pudding? Snickers
3. Left or right? Right.
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends? 2 BEST FRIENDS. duh.
5. Sunny or rainy? rainy.
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? chocolate!!

ABOUT YOU!!
1. What time is it? 21:19
2. Name? Kelvin TJAKRA
3. Nickname(s) xKeL. kel. TJAKRA. CHAKARA. zz wtv crap
4. What is your birth date? 16/05/1992
5. What do you want right this second? happiness
6. Where do you want to live? near all my friends
7. How many kids do you want? 2? lol
8.You want to get married? hmm.........

UNIQUE!
1. Can you roll your tongue? lolyes

OTHERS
1. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? twirl. only noobs cut
2. Have you ever eaten Spam? luncheon meat? yup
3. Favorite ice cream? coffee =D
4. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet? none
5. What's your favorite type of soda? coca cola
6. Do you cook? sometimes

IN THE LAST MONTH HAVE YOU
1. had a crush? erm...long b4 that
2. Bought something? duh. CDs !!
3. Sang? lol im in choir -.- and i sing to mcr songs when i listen to them =D they rule
4. Been hugged? NO.
5. Felt stupid? ...every moment
6. Missed someone? duh.
7. Danced crazy? no.
8. Gotten your hair cut? yeah...right b4 sch reopen. still get caught by lookie -.-
9. Cried? yeah. i hate my fcking hse. its HOUSE, its NOT my HOME.
10. Lied? duh.
11. Stole anything? no..lol

2007-07-11T19:16:00.000+08:00

wtf...this yr din get into F1 finals...stupid lah onli 1 team per sch...
lost to gary's own design..no more imba reaction time

haiz nvm...winata, wish u all the best for the finals

2007-07-10T21:54:00.001+08:00

today....
zz felt emo abt being socially dysfunctional again...

i've coem to a conclusion.

the hell with it.
i dont care anymore.

no one is a better judge of me than myself.
I dont care what others think.
if they think what i think, then good.
if not, to hell with it. they're stupid, not me.

so what if i dont talk to u guys
so what if i like hanging out with ppl u label as "gays"
so what if i like hanging out with "bimbos"
so what if my social circle is as small as an ant
so what if i dont have a clique i can call my own
so what if i dont play dota
so what if i get owned by creeps
so what if im a noob at cs
so what if i play CnC
so what if i emo in a corner and cry
so what if i dont listen to chi songs
so what if im childish at times
so what if i act "gay" (the word here is ACT.)
so what if i dont like you
so what if i dont curse and swear as much as you ppl
so what if i liek to speak in english
so what if my chi sucks
so what if im not so sociable
so what if im an introvert
so what if im blur sometimes
so what if i like to slp in class
so what if im fat
so what if im ugly
so what if im vain
so what if i really really like you.

this has bogged me down long enough.
i am gna live my life to the fullest.
i hav other things worth emo-ing abt (eg my location...."...".)

kthxbye.

2007-07-07T00:04:00.001+08:00

I realised now, we only learn to cherish what we've lost.

when i was still in 6th ave.....
i always complained..
WTF why must i live so far away from others...
take mrt to clementi still nid take bus....
so far...
come home from sch nid to xfer bus at commonwealth...
Now im in serangoon, i truly realised what is FAR.
i hav no way to get to the west side unless i take a 1 1/2 hr mrt + bus ride.....

last time...
it was so accessible..
bukit batok was just a bus ride away
bukit panjang too...
sch was 30 mins

now.
i dun hav to say anything.

2d..
i took almost everything for granted....
was so selfish then...

now,
in 3d,
im not close to them...
now i realise what i've lost..

please ppl....cherish everything you have. even though they may not seem to be good now, it will. live your life to the fullest.

Dance like no one's watching, Sing like no one's listening,
Live each day like your last.

2007-07-03T22:02:00.000+08:00

....pls stop it

heaven help me

have to keep myself busy....

sry if i make jokes out of u guys.....its just to distract myself

2007-07-02T22:10:00.001+08:00

"Im okay"

oh who am i kidding.

2007-07-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

"hip hip hurray for me, you talk to me"
yeah it was nice.......

but
"we never got that far"
who im i kidding......we're not that close...i cant fool myself

"this gets harder, well it did"
now it seems like im the plague

"been holding on forever"
the memories of the past

"but never again, and never again"

now would you even turn to say
"i dont love you, like i did, yesterday.."

well,
"its better off this way,
so much better off this way"

just know that
"i will remember you."

so now i'll just die
"im just a ghost."
"so i cant hurt you anymore"

I Never Told You What I Do For A Living - MCR
It's Not A Fashion Statement, It's A Deathwish - MCR
I Don't Love You - MCR
This is How I Disappear - MCR

2007-07-01T22:55:00.000+08:00

very inspiring.

http://forums.playpark.net/showthread.php?t=27533
http://forums.playpark.net/showthread.php?t=52636

pls go see pple

2007-06-27T16:35:00.003+08:00

Yeah i heard that misery was looking for me
Misery - Good Charlotte

yeah it did, it found me

2007-06-14T19:02:00.000+08:00

ok now msia one....

nth nice....
onli went genting 2D1N

din go in theme park...
stoned at coffee bean while waiting for cousins who did....
then go indoor theme park -.-
so lame...din go....
went to shop...
then bought this adidas jacket cuz i lost mine in UK
wah $100+ lol...
nvm mother pay one xD

then go play bowling...
wah each time i play i downgrade sia....
sec1 :still okay lah.....can beat many pple in 1d
sec2: zzz 0134569.........31
now: wtf 000000000000000......1 -.-

zzz i think all the ppl there laffing at me sia....

then go play arcade....
stupid one...got nth....
play abt daytona....

play time crisis....
wtf the pedal got prob sia....cant step properly -.-
wasted 3ringgit -.-

then go back hotel
play mahjong with my cousins...
i "won" 9ringgit lol...
but we play with chips onli so....
haix...

okay....
then nth nice le....except it was uber boring at my grandma hse....

btw i suddenly feel the hw rv gives is very little now...
my cousin has to write 15 essays for her holiday hw....and they onli gt 2 wks lol.....then right after hols is test....

ok nvm rv u suck giv us so much hw....

okbb

2007-06-14T18:27:00.000+08:00

ok now UK ! weet ! not so bad lah....warmer than tt time in NZ most of the time....

day1
Arrived at juniper hall...

some 18th century mansion...lol..
stayed in a 3 bed room....dam small....the bed dam unstable sia lolx..slp on the bunk blw jona..

ok then some lessons....made our lunch....lol sandwich....
2 layers.
ham, cheese, lettuce.
everyday eat this -.-

go up box hill to do investigation...
was dam cold, windy and raining...-.-
hands felt like gna drop le lolx
numb till cannot point middle finger.
then gotta wear some waterproof things lol...make us look like idiots

Day 2
woke up....
make lunch....grabbed more chips
breakfast...
got some lesson....
then go down to teh river !!!!

baptized in the river....

1st stop at some farm......lol after we did our data collection..

catch rabbits !!! woo!!!

but canot catch -.-

2nd stop at some cricket field....

this time catch ducks !! lol..

then we sat down at some bench to eat lunch...the bench read

"in loving memory of anna ...(insert surname here)"

lol.

3rd stop at some forest there..

stinging nettles all over lol....

so our data thing le....

then go pry open some logs with the poles

last stop at some graveyard...

iseedeadpeople. lol

but this time we 4got to take our equips....

so steal readings from ppl

then go back...

had tea...

then lesson

then dinner....

then lesson -.-

then go back room play warcraft on laptops LOL

Day 3

today coastal study !!!!!

went to the famous white cliffs of england

lol

then make powerpoint presentations !!!

so guailan...

remember not to waste govt funds....

or lose ur trust in the national trust.

LOL

Day4

go guildford....
do shopping =D
cheating is good hahax
did all our work in starbucks

Day5

last day in juniper hall.....
yay no more work !!!!
go to woodlands do feildwork then go LONDON !!!!
go there look see look see...
then do shopping again !!!
but go so late, all the shops closed le -.-
nvr buy much
but good thing was
THERES LAN !!! WOO !!!
so we play dota..
me n jon owned the AI lol...
then play warcraft..
we 2v1, kena owned by insane opponent
then think here some ppl msned me....

btw theres a shirt on sale that read
"FCK, now all i need is U"

btw nice leaf i found

Day 6
crap, left my waterbottle in the hostel...
ah lost le....
left for oxford...
wah i tell you the tour guide dam arrogant, think we wad, idiots?
"have you heard of william shakespeare? maybe you have"
WTF? !?!??!?!?
i know him, i read his plays, i study them, ive been tested on them -.--.-..-.--.
eat BK for lunch lol...
so ex....so small -.-
then left for bath......via cotswolds....
got some nice shops.....that we bought smth for u all....*evil grin*
then reached bath, some YHA again -.- haix......5man room this time....lucky no william

Day 7
okay....
go for tour of bath....
they all go some river trip..
baptized in the river/....

lol...
but me jon rach stanley and mocha (lol sry duno how to spell ur name) went shopping !
went to this shop called "plain lazy" where jona scammed a wallet worth 10pounds ! zomg
ate cornishes...uber pwnage....

then left bath......
went some stone circle...
catch sheep !!!! wahahahhahaha !!!
btw the sheep sometimes go "mooo"

go stonehenge....
ok nth nice....

then reach london again..
WOO HOTEL !!!! WAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
finally a hotel sia.....

Day8
go airport....byebye UK....

2007-06-13T20:35:00.000+08:00

lol....just came back from msia....a day b4 that just came back from uk...ok i blog abt those later

now do a survey i ripped =D

1.would you be the first to sae sorry if u had a misunderstanding with a friend?
define friend.
2.what kind of shirt are you wearing?
lol.
3. would you kiss anyone on your friend's list?
errrrrrr....-.-
4. how many in your friend's list is your ex?
define ex.
5. how many people in your list do you know in real life?
hm............lemme find it....wait. i dont make a list. not like losers who do
6. how many kids do you wanna have?
define kids.
7. do you have a good relationship with your family?
define family.
8.are you in love?
define love.
9. would you go out with someone with your same sex?
define "go out".
10. what do you do on your last birthday?
my last birthday? who knows, my last will never come =D
12. what time did you wake up today?
10am
13. what were you doing at midnight three nights ago?
eating bkt
14. do you like having your hair pulled?
no. do you?
15. name something you cant wait to do?
find and kill hte guy who wrote this crap
16. last time you saw your mum?
1 moment ago
17. what is one thing you wish for?
world peace

LOL. as if...

i want...

ALL TEH $$$$ IN THE WORLD !! MUAHAHHAHHA
18. if you had $250 000, what would you do?
get meh a super gaming rig. then kill some guy i hate, then bribe the police.
19. how long have you been at your current job?
since i was born
20. have you ever talked to Tom?
yeah, hes a sucker allright, just like you
21. last thing you ate?
your brain
23. whats your fav month?
dec -.- like duh
24. your least favourite month?
jan...cuz hav to go back to sch -.-
25. whats the last piece of clothing u borrowed from anyone?
pe shirt
26. who is getting on your nerves right now?
you.
27. most visited webpage?
www.howtohuntdownpeoplewhocreateumbsurveyslikethisonehere.com
28. last person you texted message?
your mom
29. last person to make you sad?
you.
30. do you easily get over a heartache?
er, just get some painkillers dude
31. favourite kind of drink?
your blood
32. have you been to europe?
duh, read above
33. if someone you hated died, what would you do?
i'll have a good laugh at his grave

2007-05-22T20:17:00.000+08:00

"zzzz"

thats wad u get when u put a student, a stage, the student population, judging eyes and ears, and a speech into a hall.
Meh, wanted to blog htis long ago, but soon 4got abt it when thousands of my neurons got killed during lessons.

SC campaigns. i LOLed when i first heard about it in sec1.
whats the use of campaigning? if people want to vote for you, they will, no matter what u say on stage. If they dont even know you, why the hell would they? even thoguh you made such a good speech, or even worse, a "politically" correct one.
Campaign speeches not allowed to be funny? i LOLED even harder. Why cant they be funny? if it works, why not? why insist on a more formal setting? just to put us to sleep? I dont think you teachers are stupid enough not to notice that most of us do not really pay attention to the speeches. let alone the more formal and monotonous ones.
Ms Ek, i seriously do not think the 75% who said SCs are good role models really meant what they said. okay, a good estimate would be 30%, for those that were really good. Thats just the best estimate. people with green rings are just people that are more popular.
Rules are there to be obeyed, not broken. They are there to keep things in order. Am i right to say that? okay its surely to be somewhere on this line. This is correct, but there are some rules that are really utterly redundant. Ankle socks. In what way does this affect our behavoiur? our grades? our attitudes? its just wearing the socks lower for heaven's sake, it won't make people mass murderers or something. T-shirts being tucked in. why insist on that? it does not make us look sloppy or anything. Insisting that we change out of our pe attire. What is that for? it will not stink up the place, since it is well ventilated. and our pe shirts are much more comfortable than that hot sweaty uniform of ours.
Or is it just a case of "other schools are doing it, so we should".
Think about it. With your hearts, with your own conscience.

2007-05-22T18:56:00.000+08:00

This is for sm or those who ate my $130 away -.-

my bdae wishlist: (any1 will do)
- XFX GeForce 8800GTS 320mb (available in SLS)
- Moto Razr v3xx (v3x sux)

lolx jk, those cost at least $500 each wahha

lol. im bored.

2007-05-20T21:48:00.000+08:00

"This hole u put me in,
Wasnt deep enough,
and im climbing out right now."
It's not a fashion statement, It's a fucking deathwish - My Chemical Romance

To whoever that's out there trying to ruin my life: Try harder, noob.

2007-05-08T15:40:00.000+08:00

ok hahax i found it troublesome to delete all my 27 posts manually so i made a new blog ! lol
stupid google blogger, keep finding mistakes in my code -.- bugged shit. in the end i found out i can revert back to classic, after much frustration -.-

exam -.-

maths - gone liao
chem - zz 8 marks gone lioa
phy - crap shit
bio - zzzz rice has fats j00 n00bZz
ss - ....
eng -flunk
chi - lol.
geog - RAH ! A1 gone ! stupid dependancy ratio

lol, that pretty much sums it up.

ok EA finally fixed their servers so its CnC3 online again !

fought against this guy, idiot American, was winning liao still wanna mock me. yea, im just a noob, and winning me doesnt mean anything -.- anw i found most of the sore losers i played against are americans o.O
then another match, i went up alone to the center field, other teamates just stayed behind. -.- in the end got owned. wtf.

ok nvm back to playing